With the oncoming stable job hours, I will be able to set a routine for myself. No more getting up at 4 or 5 occasionally for work, or staying until nine, ten, or 11 at night. No more weekends. I have decided that with Logan, I will try to come up with an activity we can do each night. Some craft, or working on numbers or whatever. Maybe playing a game. After he goes to bed, I will spend the rest of my night either reading or writing until half an hour before I want to sleep. At that time I'm going to meditate.
I found a place that sells meditation pyramids...pyramids are supposed to be powerful energy conduits. For those reading this, I don't know how you feel about this kind of thing. I may be going into cool territory, or make you think I'm one of those wackos. Oh well. In any case, I think it's possible to astral project, to slowly heal yourself or others, and calm your emotions, as well as affect yourself in almost every way possible with enough positive concentration and energy put into something. I looked up a website that talks about all the different crystals, and the properties believed to be attached to them. This pyramid I found can be taken down and put up anywhere, allowing for space anyway. When the weather turns warmer I'm going to put it outside. I want to start and end my day with meditation. We'll see what ends up happening.
The other good thing about my work schedule being set is that, at least for training, I will get out at 4:15 every day. My gym is just down the street and I plan on going at least 3 times a week before I get Logan from daycare. Yay.
And the weekends. Ah, the glorious weekends that will again be mine. Two full days with my guys to do whatever we want. Yes.
2012-Bring it on. I'm going to get married this year and work on myself and my family. It's going to be awesome.
Monday, January 2, 2012
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
2012
So the New Year hasn't started yet, and there is a lot of exciting stuff left in the next week and a half, but 2012 is going to be an amazing year and I am excited to start it.
Andrew and I settled on a cruise, and once we book it we can let everyone know our wedding date. Late August, people...
I will be hearing from State Farm by the end of this week for my final offer to work there. Going through background checks. I had an interview and they called me late one night to let me know they wanted me on board. I have three weeks left at King Soopers and I am so happy. I can't wait to start there. I don't know if I'm more stoked about the money or the stability of hours. Logan need the consistency too. He hasn't been dealing well lately with having some days at home, and some days at daycare. He gets upset when I take him there half the time.
Andrew and I have been talking a lot about our future, and this year is going to be the start of all of it. Everything is looking up. With a stable job I can start planning doing things. I don't have to worry about working things around a job. I am very excited about what this means. When things come together better, I will share more information.
For this year though, I get to make Christmas dinner. We have lots of presents to share and I am happy to be able to have a nice schedule to enjoy Christmas. I get to see lots of family.
WOOO
Andrew and I settled on a cruise, and once we book it we can let everyone know our wedding date. Late August, people...
I will be hearing from State Farm by the end of this week for my final offer to work there. Going through background checks. I had an interview and they called me late one night to let me know they wanted me on board. I have three weeks left at King Soopers and I am so happy. I can't wait to start there. I don't know if I'm more stoked about the money or the stability of hours. Logan need the consistency too. He hasn't been dealing well lately with having some days at home, and some days at daycare. He gets upset when I take him there half the time.
Andrew and I have been talking a lot about our future, and this year is going to be the start of all of it. Everything is looking up. With a stable job I can start planning doing things. I don't have to worry about working things around a job. I am very excited about what this means. When things come together better, I will share more information.
For this year though, I get to make Christmas dinner. We have lots of presents to share and I am happy to be able to have a nice schedule to enjoy Christmas. I get to see lots of family.
WOOO
Friday, November 11, 2011
Feelin' good
So yesterday I applied to State Farm. It's for an underwriting position, of which I already know some about. I called to check on the ins and outs of the job posting. It was posted on the fourth, and the desired start date for the 51, yes 51 positions, is January 9th. That's only two months away. I could have a very clear light at the end of the tunnel. Trying hard not to get too excited, because this could just be the perfect place for me right now. If I don't get it, who knows how long it will be before I find something else like this. Been looking for months now, and I have barely found things to apply for, and hardly any of them were anywhere close to this good.
I talked to an HR employee and she said they haven't had enough applicants yet, so being in the first 51 to apply, I feel pretty confident that I'll get an interview. I had started the process of interviewing at this company a couple of years ago when I decided to go back to school. You do online testing, to see if you have basic comprehension and problem solving skills. They want to know you can type fast. I need to practice using the number pad, but my words per minute is 65 and above. Blah blah blah. I would have gotten hired except my school schedule interferred. This time there will be nothing to intefere. I can have regular hours, most weekends and nights off, a good salary, and NO UNIFORM. I can wear what I want. WOOOOO. I cannot believe how anxious I am about this.
Every time my phone rings I'm going to have a heart attack.
Well I guess that's all. Needed to write all of that so I can focus on writing my book. Mute Math is my companion today. Wooo
I talked to an HR employee and she said they haven't had enough applicants yet, so being in the first 51 to apply, I feel pretty confident that I'll get an interview. I had started the process of interviewing at this company a couple of years ago when I decided to go back to school. You do online testing, to see if you have basic comprehension and problem solving skills. They want to know you can type fast. I need to practice using the number pad, but my words per minute is 65 and above. Blah blah blah. I would have gotten hired except my school schedule interferred. This time there will be nothing to intefere. I can have regular hours, most weekends and nights off, a good salary, and NO UNIFORM. I can wear what I want. WOOOOO. I cannot believe how anxious I am about this.
Every time my phone rings I'm going to have a heart attack.
Well I guess that's all. Needed to write all of that so I can focus on writing my book. Mute Math is my companion today. Wooo
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Job Search, Writing, and losing my mind
Holy cow. I feel like there is no time to do all of the stuff that needs to be done, let alone what I want to do. I feel anxious about everything. It appears that I am unwanted by places that have job openings for something menial and basic like a secretary. This isn't to say these jobs aren't nice, or rewarding. I can very much see myself in something like that. I don't want that to be my career, however. Since I have been unable to receive contact from these places, I have decided to go out and dream big. Super. I have no experience though. Oh sure, if you want to know what's on every burger at Carl's Jr. or where the scallions are, because you don't know they're just green onions, I'm your gal. But if you want me to type up some e-mails, as far as my experience goes, you should absolutely laugh in my face and burn my application right in front of me.
I am unqualified for the jobs that i need to get me experience for other jobs. So what...lie? Beg? Stage a protest that makes no sense because of course they are all going to hire someone with experience over someone who just really wants a job? Yeah. None of those seem good to me, either.
So while I am trying to decide what type of resume and cover letter to write to whichever company won't hire me, I am feeling like a loser because I want to write and feel like I don't have the time to do that and job searching. Plus, there's the part where I'm a living person in a house that needs cleaning.
I want this whole adult thing to be over with. Or at least resolve the job issue. I don't care if that means I have to have something else to worry about. I'm done worrying about what the hell it is I'm going to do. I'd like to be able to pay more of my bills. Maybe I don't even get to pay all of them with the next job; but can I just pay more? I'd also like my son to listen to me half of the time. Look-I'm not even asking for all of the time. Yet somehow, half seems to be incredibly idealistic as well.
Yes, I'm being pathetic and whiny. But look! Self-aware. Oh I don't know.
Okay. Fuck this. I have a house. I have low rent. I have an adorable (when he wants to be) son. I have an awesome fiance. I just put gas in my car that got me over the half way mark. I have put $20 into savings the last two weeks combined. I have coffee to drink. I have food to eat. I have a computer and internet that allow me to be able to work on the things I need and want to.
there. Theoretically out of my funk. Blast the music and eat some lunch. maybe drink some wine. I DON'T CARE THAT IT'S IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAY. I AM AN ECCENTRIC WRITER GOD DAMNIT. Ha. That felt good, too. Okay. Adios.
I am unqualified for the jobs that i need to get me experience for other jobs. So what...lie? Beg? Stage a protest that makes no sense because of course they are all going to hire someone with experience over someone who just really wants a job? Yeah. None of those seem good to me, either.
So while I am trying to decide what type of resume and cover letter to write to whichever company won't hire me, I am feeling like a loser because I want to write and feel like I don't have the time to do that and job searching. Plus, there's the part where I'm a living person in a house that needs cleaning.
I want this whole adult thing to be over with. Or at least resolve the job issue. I don't care if that means I have to have something else to worry about. I'm done worrying about what the hell it is I'm going to do. I'd like to be able to pay more of my bills. Maybe I don't even get to pay all of them with the next job; but can I just pay more? I'd also like my son to listen to me half of the time. Look-I'm not even asking for all of the time. Yet somehow, half seems to be incredibly idealistic as well.
Yes, I'm being pathetic and whiny. But look! Self-aware. Oh I don't know.
Okay. Fuck this. I have a house. I have low rent. I have an adorable (when he wants to be) son. I have an awesome fiance. I just put gas in my car that got me over the half way mark. I have put $20 into savings the last two weeks combined. I have coffee to drink. I have food to eat. I have a computer and internet that allow me to be able to work on the things I need and want to.
there. Theoretically out of my funk. Blast the music and eat some lunch. maybe drink some wine. I DON'T CARE THAT IT'S IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAY. I AM AN ECCENTRIC WRITER GOD DAMNIT. Ha. That felt good, too. Okay. Adios.
Monday, November 7, 2011
The Super crazy month of november
This month is known to many as NaNoWriMo, or National Novel Writing Month. Thousands and thousands of people embark on an intense journey to write 50,000 words in 30 days despite full time jobs, school, kids and whatever else they have going on. I have joined the masses this year with a clear goal in mind. I plotted out a story and made plans for my characters. I finally started writing in a point of view that I don't find myself hating after three pages and being crippled by. My dialogue doesn't blow chunks as it has in the past. I feel good about what I'm writing and I am hoping for one more thing. Catharsis. Only the end of the month will tell if this was a bad idea, or if it was liberating and extremely joyful. Maybe it could be all three. I don't know.
In the world of jobs these days, I have picked up enough shifts the last two weeks because of other people getting fired (yay for stupidity and laziness?) that I have had around 35 hours. Lately I have only been getting around 20-24. Not nearly enough to do what I need my money to. We have three new people in our department in three weeks, and are losing our manager. None of this is a bad thing. We have two new assistants who I think will be great. It's just a lot of change all at once. It's exciting, though.
Outside of my current job, I have decided that since i have not heard back from the jobs I am only applying for because they will be better than the one I have now, I have decided that regardless of whether theyare hiring or not, I will only apply to places I REALLY want to work at. Jobs that I know will make me happy aside from paying my bills. I figure almost anything I choose outside of retail will pay me more than I'm getting now, so the money part shouldn't be hard to fulfill. In finding a place to at least apply to, anyway. I have decided to write a kick ass cover letter, obviously tweeking a few things based on where I apply, and find people to write me reccomendations. After that, I have to figure out what I can to with, or to, the application to make myself and it stand out. I get to be creative right now. Super creative month. It's what I like to do so I should be happy.
Which, by the way, I am. On a random note, I again feel the urge to write how happy I am with my life as a whole. Yes, money is stressful but honestly, I don't really see a time where we won't be at least a little concerned as to where money will come from, or how to use it the best when we have it. Especially if and when we start adding more kids to the mix. However, I know that I have found the right person for me to go through all of this with. Andrew cares for me deeply and he doesn't just assume I know it because he's with me.
Blah blah, mushy icky gooey stuff. I will probably be staying at my mom's tomorrow night because of the late hour I will be getting off of work and she will watch Logan. I am going to ask her if we get Christmas decorations like we did Halloween. I want to start decorating soon. It might seem a little early, but it takes a lot of work to put it all up and take it all down. it hardly seems worth it to enjoy for a short month. Especially when Andrew and I aren't here as much as we'd like to be. I am also just wanting to enjoy the Hoildays. So there.
Guess this update is over. Better chug my coffee and get the kid dressed to go to daycare. Good luck to everyone doing NaNoWriMo, and I love you guys.
In the world of jobs these days, I have picked up enough shifts the last two weeks because of other people getting fired (yay for stupidity and laziness?) that I have had around 35 hours. Lately I have only been getting around 20-24. Not nearly enough to do what I need my money to. We have three new people in our department in three weeks, and are losing our manager. None of this is a bad thing. We have two new assistants who I think will be great. It's just a lot of change all at once. It's exciting, though.
Outside of my current job, I have decided that since i have not heard back from the jobs I am only applying for because they will be better than the one I have now, I have decided that regardless of whether theyare hiring or not, I will only apply to places I REALLY want to work at. Jobs that I know will make me happy aside from paying my bills. I figure almost anything I choose outside of retail will pay me more than I'm getting now, so the money part shouldn't be hard to fulfill. In finding a place to at least apply to, anyway. I have decided to write a kick ass cover letter, obviously tweeking a few things based on where I apply, and find people to write me reccomendations. After that, I have to figure out what I can to with, or to, the application to make myself and it stand out. I get to be creative right now. Super creative month. It's what I like to do so I should be happy.
Which, by the way, I am. On a random note, I again feel the urge to write how happy I am with my life as a whole. Yes, money is stressful but honestly, I don't really see a time where we won't be at least a little concerned as to where money will come from, or how to use it the best when we have it. Especially if and when we start adding more kids to the mix. However, I know that I have found the right person for me to go through all of this with. Andrew cares for me deeply and he doesn't just assume I know it because he's with me.
Blah blah, mushy icky gooey stuff. I will probably be staying at my mom's tomorrow night because of the late hour I will be getting off of work and she will watch Logan. I am going to ask her if we get Christmas decorations like we did Halloween. I want to start decorating soon. It might seem a little early, but it takes a lot of work to put it all up and take it all down. it hardly seems worth it to enjoy for a short month. Especially when Andrew and I aren't here as much as we'd like to be. I am also just wanting to enjoy the Hoildays. So there.
Guess this update is over. Better chug my coffee and get the kid dressed to go to daycare. Good luck to everyone doing NaNoWriMo, and I love you guys.
Monday, October 24, 2011
At home with the dude today!
Yesterday saw us putting the finishing touches to our costumes. I suppose we have just a little more to do. Tomorrow night we are going to do a dry run of how we'll look. My mom went through her mom's old costume jewlery and found some rings and a necklace for me to wear. She also found some glitter that I was looking for. I am going to put glitter on all parts of my skin showing, as well as in my hair. My make-up will be a gold smokey eye and I can't wait. Going to just make my hair wavy and let it stay down. I guess I still need to decide if I want to be a particular goddess and figure out how to make it apparent which one it is I am. Andrew will wear a white button up shirt with a vest, nice black pants, and a cloak. My mom found a couple of roses that we need to figure out how to attach to his vest. We'll slick his hair back-and I just can't wait because he is going to be so freakin sexy.
Andrew and I picked out our pumpkins, two each, and Logan got three tiny pumpkins to paint. Next Sunday we will have a pumpkin party and decorate. It's going to be awesome. I have several days off this week, which means not a lot of money, but it also means more time to get things done that I want to. I have been feeling more motivated to be productive on several different things. Cleaning for one. I also have been thinking of how to plan out my book for NaNoWriMo and will start writing an outline today. I took a little long to do it, but I'm happy that I am still doing better than last year. I want this to be a success. I also think I will work some on my poetry so that when I find a place to send some, I will be ready and won't feel like I have to rush to get something ready.
Logan is with me and right now he is coloring. He has been so cute. He loves to pretend he's a puppy, and he will rub his face and head on mine to show he loves me. It's adorable. He keeps wanting to play outside, but the weather today is definitely acting much more like fall than it has been. I'm not ready to feel cold yet. At some point I guess I better take him outside, though, or he'll lose his mind.
Also-it is several months away, but I never think about it in time...if anybody has suggestions on cheapish birthday party ideas for Logan, that would be wonderful. He will be four on Jan. 26th. Someone has suggested having it at a firestation. The firemen talk to the kids about the engines and they get to look in them I guess. I don't know weather it costs. The problem is, everyone we know is in Greeley, who would be coming anyway, and we live in Windsor. Huh. Maybe I don't care. It's not a long drive. We could have something at home, I guess. Maybe it's time to invite the family along with all of his daycare friends. It would be the first time we host something like that. Intense. And super awesome. You know what? I think that's what I want to do. Just have to think up a theme. Well. I've rambled on long enough. Have a great day everybody!
Andrew and I picked out our pumpkins, two each, and Logan got three tiny pumpkins to paint. Next Sunday we will have a pumpkin party and decorate. It's going to be awesome. I have several days off this week, which means not a lot of money, but it also means more time to get things done that I want to. I have been feeling more motivated to be productive on several different things. Cleaning for one. I also have been thinking of how to plan out my book for NaNoWriMo and will start writing an outline today. I took a little long to do it, but I'm happy that I am still doing better than last year. I want this to be a success. I also think I will work some on my poetry so that when I find a place to send some, I will be ready and won't feel like I have to rush to get something ready.
Logan is with me and right now he is coloring. He has been so cute. He loves to pretend he's a puppy, and he will rub his face and head on mine to show he loves me. It's adorable. He keeps wanting to play outside, but the weather today is definitely acting much more like fall than it has been. I'm not ready to feel cold yet. At some point I guess I better take him outside, though, or he'll lose his mind.
Also-it is several months away, but I never think about it in time...if anybody has suggestions on cheapish birthday party ideas for Logan, that would be wonderful. He will be four on Jan. 26th. Someone has suggested having it at a firestation. The firemen talk to the kids about the engines and they get to look in them I guess. I don't know weather it costs. The problem is, everyone we know is in Greeley, who would be coming anyway, and we live in Windsor. Huh. Maybe I don't care. It's not a long drive. We could have something at home, I guess. Maybe it's time to invite the family along with all of his daycare friends. It would be the first time we host something like that. Intense. And super awesome. You know what? I think that's what I want to do. Just have to think up a theme. Well. I've rambled on long enough. Have a great day everybody!
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Halloween is upon us!!!!!
Yesterday was the first time I have ever made chili myself. It was a success. Started it at 8 in the morning and ate it twelve hours later after my shift ended. After dinner, we made Andrew's mask for Halloween. He's going to be the phantom. Now normally, one would be able to simply buy a mask. I'd like to say that I'm just a bad-ass so I just whipped out my crafts and decided to make one for the hell of it. Andrew, however, has a huge head and there isn't a mask on the planet (that we found anyway) to fit his head. In any case, the first phase went well, I think. Today we will sand it down then paint it to make it nice and glossy.
Before that we are LOOKING FOR PUMPKINS! My parents have always carved pumpkins. We have been collecting patterns for years and pumpkin carving is an epic event in my house. We won't actually carve them until next weekend so they still look nice for Halloween night. I'm very excited, too, because at work they have a yearly carving contest and my department has agreed to let me carve it. I think nobody else wants to take the time. That's fine. I love doing it.
As far as decorating goes for Halloween, we have made a fake guy to sit on the front porch. Overalls, a long sleeved shirt and the creepiest mask I have seen. We have a skeleton that died in a dungeon and lots of faces coming at you from trees, the garage, and the house. Logan got to help by putting up window clings. I freaking love Halloween. What I love even more is that I am creating traditions with my family. Andrew and I are both bringing our familial holiday traditions to our new family and loving it.
I am constantly astounded at what we are creating as a life for ourselves. I love what we do and how we do it. Yeah, I know. That was super vague. Sorry. I guess I don't want this post to be about that. I just wanted to say that I am very happy with everything in my life. More to come!!
Before that we are LOOKING FOR PUMPKINS! My parents have always carved pumpkins. We have been collecting patterns for years and pumpkin carving is an epic event in my house. We won't actually carve them until next weekend so they still look nice for Halloween night. I'm very excited, too, because at work they have a yearly carving contest and my department has agreed to let me carve it. I think nobody else wants to take the time. That's fine. I love doing it.
As far as decorating goes for Halloween, we have made a fake guy to sit on the front porch. Overalls, a long sleeved shirt and the creepiest mask I have seen. We have a skeleton that died in a dungeon and lots of faces coming at you from trees, the garage, and the house. Logan got to help by putting up window clings. I freaking love Halloween. What I love even more is that I am creating traditions with my family. Andrew and I are both bringing our familial holiday traditions to our new family and loving it.
I am constantly astounded at what we are creating as a life for ourselves. I love what we do and how we do it. Yeah, I know. That was super vague. Sorry. I guess I don't want this post to be about that. I just wanted to say that I am very happy with everything in my life. More to come!!
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